The Moon; A Man. The Disturbing Part 1

I had lost some things along the way. I ventured through areas of torment and suffering, paying dues. . . paying with what I had incubated in my consciousness; priceless; stumbling to land there.

I am not alone in this loss–wouldn’t you agree?

The untouchable balance of Yin and Yang, when challenged, casts an invitation by some psychic beacon to lure whatever presence is wandering the void of dimensional space-time.

As my weakness allowed, a deeper darkness masterfully found refuge in my own rotted cavities where the goodness, wonder and innocence had been ripped or snatched, or perhaps withered in some nightmare I wasn’t equipped to control–I had become the host for that writhing, dark heaviness that wasted no time to nourish lavishly: Devouring that rotted cavity.

 

An EX resurfaces from the aches of the past to ask for money

My day started out with this international SMS text: “Can I get my money back? I’m super poor now! — KEDISON!!

It was nearly midnight for him there in Shenzhen and in the late morning, stateside.

I took a few hours to remember the moment he abandoned me in Hong Kong as my Chinese VISA had some issue with expiring just an hour previous to the entering the queue for re-entry.

I was completely alone there and the officers really made me leave the port of travel. I waited for hours for a taxi and I was finally dropped off at a place I could stay for a few hours of the night.

I didn’t see Kedison for weeks after that. I had wondered why he did that; to leave a boyfriend stranded in Hong Kong.

My answer to his text today was,”I tried to send but u blocked me everywhere, remember?”

I transferred 95 dollars to his Alipay account.

No, I don’t actually owe him anything. I just wanted to give him something since he seemed to be in such desperation to have to text me about it.

He yelled at me some more and then blocked me again.

This is the life that I should tell you more about.

Message in a Bottle

Hi  David

     Thanks you for your lessons , and I am glad to become your friend , if you have no problem about this.
    You gave me your email address two weeks ago, and now it’s the first time I contact you. i  am sorry for that.
    I should admit that I am not really good at making friends with strangers, especially foreigners. It’s easy for kids to make friends and for adults to communicate with people. It sounds ridiculous , right ? Because adults do everything purposely , and that’s what you replied me when I asked you the reason why Chinese want to chat with you when we met for the first time , and that’s why I worried about too much when I want to make friends with you .  I don’t want you have this kind of sense that I did it purposely.
    I tell you a story about a Chinese student named A studying in USA. He complaint a lot about relationship between Chinese students and local native students. A is freshman, and he doesn’t have a car .We all know it’s inconvenient if you don’t owe a car when you live in America. A has no choice but ask for help from local students, so the first step for him is to make friends with native students. No you get me point ,right ? Just because A intended to make friends , so the problems happened. American students are smart enough to know the truth , and they took advantages of it. they used each other. A paid for the gas bill for several times , and A’s friends took him to where he want to go.
    Actually , I have ever had a foreign friend before. But before I contact you, I really don’t want to be the guy like A  who makes friends purposely. undoubtedly you are a nice guy with kind and brave heart . You live in China alone without your families which impressed me. Like I said , westerners are adventurers and Chinese are farmers. Although I really want to live in USA, it’s absolutely hard for me to live in a country without my families.
    BTW, I am gonna take a tour work for two months in ShenZhun(深圳). The nest time I attend your class may be the New spring in Lunar Calendar if you are still in WORLD School which I hope .
    OK ,  thank you for reading my balalala complaint about my  troubles to make friends ! I hope you will be happy in China and have fun ! If you have any questions about China , please tell me , because I know foreigner s always have so many “whys” about this strange country .
    Good night!
    Rings