I had lost some things along the way. I ventured through areas of torment and suffering, paying dues. . . paying with what I had incubated in my consciousness; priceless; stumbling to land there.
I am not alone in this loss–wouldn’t you agree?
The untouchable balance of Yin and Yang, when challenged, casts an invitation by some psychic beacon to lure whatever presence is wandering the void of dimensional space-time.
As my weakness allowed, a deeper darkness masterfully found refuge in my own rotted cavities where the goodness, wonder and innocence had been ripped or snatched, or perhaps withered in some nightmare I wasn’t equipped to control–I had become the host for that writhing, dark heaviness that wasted no time to nourish lavishly: Devouring that rotted cavity.
Self-doubt is a demon strangling all of us given the chance to feed on our life’s energy. When the time of self-realization is finally striking the bells of a change to begin again the war on the self-doubt demon has already started. Let’s seal this force away before he wins again.
I can provide additional clarity.
If ideas (any and all) are being dismissed by the negative voices in your imagination, then you might be crazy. Do you like being out of control and helpless? What source of internal strength is better to perceive than a sword of light to cut through the self-doubt demon?
If it’s not yet time to achieve this level of energy, then here is a method to consider. Understand why levels of discomfort are affected by external forces. Perhaps it’s the chains of expectations that have weighed down whatever dreams that have become cloudy at this time. It’s different for everyone the social or familial (relating to family) story that repeatedly plays in the mind when it’s time to eliminate self-doubt.
Something that worked in my situation was hypnotherapy, sensory-deprivation tank “floating” for as long as possible, LISTENING to podcasts of shows that I like, letting go of the power of influence of people with intentions to hold me down, self-talk in the mirror (you are strong, you are beautiful, you can do this), lighting candles and watching as many documentaries about struggling with substance abuse such as the show Intervention from A&E. It’s not necessary to do any of these things because they may not work for everyone. I’m simply laying out some ideas that can rev-up your engines to start churning out on a piece of paper what could and will work for you.
Stop calculating the reasons why anything or sometimes why everything won’t work. I don’t care how difficult this process will be for you because I know you can do this. Stop it. Change it. Reverse it.
Control your energy and manage it into a significant force of self-improvement. Some people say, “Rise Above.”
Recently, I have been getting acquainted with what the steps are to becoming a social cast-off or what people could easily relate to as a social dark-hole. A place where everything in it ends totally morphed and renewed into some sort of mutative-adaptive replication.
I was originally planning to write some sort of social experimentation; I collect and gather amazing information about being out in public logically sorting the separate occasions which showcase current times in our world.
My ears have been flooded with Cait. I love her. She is United States of America #liberty hero! Each day for two days, new information has been broadcast. Everything about Cait is extremely #uplifting and #inspiring.
We need a new hero. Here to stay, I love you Cait!
On anther note;
I re-educated myself about currently outdated technology. If you search TopTenz videos, you can find the same one I saw. It turns out that some companies or enthusiasts still use dot-matrix printers and many local transit systems (if not all) perpetuate the use magnetic strips on the back of #commuter passes.
It’s already June 2015. The high school seniors are finally free to pursue their drivers license test and sobriety among peers occasions.
As a member of the 2005 class, I want to spread my influential spread to usher in the new #millennials.